Hi and Assalamualaikum

Long time no entry, here I am with a new pov. How was life these past few months of 2018? To be honest, mine is quite challenging and I'm still struggling with my best effort to always look up for the positivity and turn down the negativity before it spreads all over my life. Alhamdullilah, I've learnt something more than useful to me. Now I know that you are you for who you believe yourself are. I'm so so so much blessed with some tests Allah has given to me. I manage to cope with them so so well. There's no other help I could beg other than Him. I've been so lonely but when I come up to my mind, I know that He always knows my struggle and I still have him to seek help from. 

I've been socializing with some kind of people that for sure I learnt a lot from the acquaintance. Some shower me with the holy love but some treat me like shit. This is the biggest thing I am grateful for. At least, in my life, I know that I can never to trust to everyone even if they are my closest friend. Some friends talked back about you. Some are happy to see you down. And the worst of the worst are those who try to make your life more miserable by not telling the truth and act differently in every situation. Such a hypocrite. There's this one friend whom I believe could help me get better with the other but sadly, she's the one who tries to distance us apart. If I am the reason of all this, let me know and stop those back talk shit. 

However, there comes the realisation out of me. Now, I know that I have no one to trust. I have to reserve some for myself. Friends are nothing when you, yourself do not make it an effort to always be there for secrets, feelings and problems. Loyalty is everything. I wish that for those who are currently having a nightmare of having such a friend who gives damn f*ck to your life, go get yourself a life. I was that person who thinks that my life is going to be miserable without friends but I was wrong. I can be happier without them. I still have me to cheer myself up. I don't need such friend in my life, who will eventually ruin mine. I have my stand for this. Eliminates the people who treat bad of you. Of who never make an effort loving you back. All this time, I've been so much sincere in friendship but well, in university you see all types of friend present in this world. The always want to eat one, the friend who talks bad behind you and super angelic kind of friend in front of you, that friend who always want to be competitive in every action while it should be a collaboration for better and the list goes on. So guys, find that kind of friends you wish to have. You are who your friends are. My ultimate advice is to always always be careful and not to easily trust people. You can take some of their words and keep some as a safety barrier. Till then, good night.

Much love,

T