Hi and Assalamualaikum

Today marks the second week of my second semester. Everything went well these few days. Alhamdullilah I’m getting lots of friends. I am so happy with my life right now. Things get better with my housemates this semester, hopefully. They’re all in one kind state that I’ve been hoping for. This semester I chose to be a little bit more active than last year. Exercising and participating in things I’ve never done before. It’s a kind of learning. It’s a matter of time that I should have to try everything in front of me and move on in so many things that have been stopping me from being extra. Oh, so positive about me this time.

So, what about ‘that question’? Honestly, guys, things have never been in my way actually, I’ve to admit that. I’m in so much guilt and despair the first few days starting my semester. I have an issue that I don’t even need to tell anyone, but they knew it already. I am so not ready for that same question I have to answer and repeatedly answer. People seem to want to know about that but I know that they do not care. They just want to know the story but not even an inch of effort to help me to solve that. I am so disappointed with everyone in my life right now except for those who have tried hard to make that issue solved, thank you. However, the ratio of that kind of person is only 5:1. It hurts to know that no one actually cares but they just want to know, they ask just to satisfy their curiosity about that issue. To look at the positive side, maybe they just don’t want to make the issue bigger. Thank you today is Friday, I must be positive for this lots of barakah day.

Lesson learned. From that issue I’ve been facing the few days right after I registered, sometimes I should have just moved on with my life. People can come and go. I don’t have the right to make them stay. I’ve been struggling a lot to make things better but when it comes from only one side’s effort, then nothing will ever change. I don’t know where is the mistake. I try and pray hard for the better us. May happiness always be with you. The fate that I met you can never be the most hated event in my life but the happiest instead. Things may get more awkward but do believe that I’m happy when you’re happy. I’m sorry for all the questions we have to answer. I just can say that we never argue but time just has to stop us from proceeding with this friendship. May Allah bless us and shower us with the purest love from a group we can call friends.

Sometimes, letting go of people is the best thing we should have done. I've been trying hard to make them happy but things don't go what we expect. Me, being me is someone who hates to be forced and to force. I'm not the owner of any one's life. They should have been responsible for what is to happen in their life. I just hope that that question will not haunt me the next time. If it was too obvious, it's just because we are awkward to ourselves. Till then, I hope to a solving or a sudden moving on. 

Love,

T