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Hi and Assalamualaikum

So today marks my second last day at home after about 2 hours staying at home doing things I wanted the most; woke up late and eat till nothing left. Now that I've been going through lots of things that are mind disturbing to me so much that I want to write something so bad. Till then, I came across with this topic just a few moments before I switch on my lappy and yeah, I currently typing it. So here I go, the next topic is that we own nothing. 

How come I came to my mind to write about this is because I just let my cats leave on their own. I know that they have been wanted to leave on their own since before. I realised that yesterday when they keep meowing that eventually annoy me and I'm sure the neighbours too. I've been thinking of letting them go for carefree. It's totally a lie if I say that I'm not crying but then I realise that I do not own them. They choose their path of life too. I know the feeling of being trapped and I totally hate it. I love them so much that I could cry when the cannot play well because they hurt their legs. I love cats and I am so sentimental for all the things about them. Allah SWT made them for us to pour the love. Allah SWT owns them as well as He owns me and all the living in this world. So, I set them free, that's my decision and I believe Allah SWT will always take a good care of them. You will always in my mind and dua', Utih and Yen.

With that, I start to think of everything in this world, He owns. While I and the other living things have nothing to call ours. Even the smallest thing I bet is mine, is not mine. That is the fact that I should have known before. In 2015, I could say my most sad year so far because I lost my grandma. She's always with her advice to not to forget reciting Quran, practice kindness every day and everything that leads me to a better person. I asked Him why did He take her away from me this fast? I realised that it was wrong to keep questioning his fate but that was what I did. And now I know that I borrowed her and it's time for her to go. I now know the peace of letting go and be grateful for what is in front of me because yet there will always some beneficial issues behind. He owns us. He owns our happiness so instead of questioning why don't we make a prayer for a better life and better us. Allah is the Most Giving. We ask and inshaAllah He will grant to us if it is the best for us.

Realise that even if you are rich right now, full of money in your pocket but you utilise the money to something Allah SWT does not bless then anytime He can take all of your poverty in seconds. Don't hesitate to start setting our mind that nothing in this world is ours. These can make us be as humble as possible so that we do not live as an ignorant people who always think that we are above everyone in this world because some other time Allah will do his role to make you the poorest people in the world. Be grateful for what we have and always remember to not take things for granted. We own nothing in this world, they all comes from Allah SWT as he wishes.

Much love,

T

Hi and Assalamualaikum

So today, I'm gonna talk about friends. We as a friend and them as our friends. Some people are blessed with real friends who never backstabbed them, while others aren't. It's not a thing we call luck, it's a rizq that God bless us with and for us to be grateful for. All praises to God, I have a very small circle of friends that I still have to trust to. To be honest, I do really appreciate them and they are mostly from my childhood friends. I now realize the fact that the older you are, the smaller circle of favourite and trusted people you met. I have such good girlfriends from my kindergarten up to primary and secondary schools that I trusted the most that I could spend most of my time with them especially during the semester breaks. I am that kind of person who prioritises my family and friends above everything that benefits myself. I like to be friends with everyone but I don't easily put trust in someone. In my journey, there always be that one or two friends that dare my patience. There is this one friend who I intentionally lied to her saying that I currently in a relationship with someone and to my surprise, she didn't happy for that relationship I lied to her. She was like staying away from me and just be selfish to herself. But once I told her that I'd already broken up with my imaginary boyfriend, she was so happy and that was the day I realize that she cannot accept the fact that I'm happy with someone while she's not. How can a friend happy to her friend's parting away in a relationship? From that, I know that she'd been jealous of me and treat me as a competitor that I thought shouldn't exist in an honest friendship. Sometimes, test your friend to know how sincere they are to the friendship you built. I hate fake friends.

Thus, what are friends for? Only for fun, gossiping, educational intentions or maybe just to be backstabbed? Oopsss, pardon! So as for me, friends are allowed to come and go as they pleased but always there to spare some of their time to consult, support and console you in your ups and downs. I am not a friend who needs 24/7 attention and updates from my girls. However, whenever we need each other we just have to start greeting in the WhatsApp group so that they know their roles. Most importantly, don't put high expectations on your friends. We are humans, we are never perfect. So, in order for you to keep the bonds right, make sure to always and always be considerate. You are no one without friends. Find your reflections well. We need each other to make things right at their place. 

To be caution, dear readers, it is true to trust your friends in order to maintain a good relationship but there is also no wrong to always think wise so that you will not be one of those backstabbed victim to your friend. Nauzubillah. Some friends only take advantage of you. They used your kindness and honesty towards them just to make them benefits thing we don't even realize. That is what we called 'friends for benefits' (FFB). I hate that kind of people who always think they are clever enough to deceive people. Thus, I hope everyone who is reading this can have at least that one friend that we can rely on in any situations we are facing at that time. In whatever situations always make yourself as your own friend because you are that number one person who understands you. Anyway, if you haven't found your true friend, don't hesitate to find one and to pray for the best friend to support you throughout your life journey. May everything is good for us and everyone.

Much love,

T