Hi and Assalamualaikum

So today marks my second last day at home after about 2 hours staying at home doing things I wanted the most; woke up late and eat till nothing left. Now that I've been going through lots of things that are mind disturbing to me so much that I want to write something so bad. Till then, I came across with this topic just a few moments before I switch on my lappy and yeah, I currently typing it. So here I go, the next topic is that we own nothing. 

How come I came to my mind to write about this is because I just let my cats leave on their own. I know that they have been wanted to leave on their own since before. I realised that yesterday when they keep meowing that eventually annoy me and I'm sure the neighbours too. I've been thinking of letting them go for carefree. It's totally a lie if I say that I'm not crying but then I realise that I do not own them. They choose their path of life too. I know the feeling of being trapped and I totally hate it. I love them so much that I could cry when the cannot play well because they hurt their legs. I love cats and I am so sentimental for all the things about them. Allah SWT made them for us to pour the love. Allah SWT owns them as well as He owns me and all the living in this world. So, I set them free, that's my decision and I believe Allah SWT will always take a good care of them. You will always in my mind and dua', Utih and Yen.

With that, I start to think of everything in this world, He owns. While I and the other living things have nothing to call ours. Even the smallest thing I bet is mine, is not mine. That is the fact that I should have known before. In 2015, I could say my most sad year so far because I lost my grandma. She's always with her advice to not to forget reciting Quran, practice kindness every day and everything that leads me to a better person. I asked Him why did He take her away from me this fast? I realised that it was wrong to keep questioning his fate but that was what I did. And now I know that I borrowed her and it's time for her to go. I now know the peace of letting go and be grateful for what is in front of me because yet there will always some beneficial issues behind. He owns us. He owns our happiness so instead of questioning why don't we make a prayer for a better life and better us. Allah is the Most Giving. We ask and inshaAllah He will grant to us if it is the best for us.

Realise that even if you are rich right now, full of money in your pocket but you utilise the money to something Allah SWT does not bless then anytime He can take all of your poverty in seconds. Don't hesitate to start setting our mind that nothing in this world is ours. These can make us be as humble as possible so that we do not live as an ignorant people who always think that we are above everyone in this world because some other time Allah will do his role to make you the poorest people in the world. Be grateful for what we have and always remember to not take things for granted. We own nothing in this world, they all comes from Allah SWT as he wishes.

Much love,

T